Rich Sigberman Art & Illustration 90

I just got back from a fine vacation in the Puerto Vallarta region of Mexico, lazing around by the ocean and hanging with friends. The weather was balmy and the relaxation level high. I was struck by, among other things, the fact that I had no particular urge to draw or paint, although I had the means to do so if I wanted to. The one time I sketched a bit was in a store in Sayulita, and it was fun, but just for the moment.

It is as if I'm ready to retire right now and do nothing but read and listen to music until the end of my days. I really don't understand my mindset right now, but I do know that if I don't do some work assignments, I will have no income. So, motivated or not, it is time to get with it again.

Right now there are two good jobs on my table that I may devote my time to. They are good jobs with decent budgets. I will address them, but I'm still wondering where the level of excitement and discovery is for me. I am missing the old sense that the picture I am currently working on is the best one I've ever done, and that I'm doing things artistically that I've never quite done before. Must be a mid-life crisis of some sort.

There are plenty of excuses to be had, but I can't bore myself with them. They are not true. I've got to push myself to work, and hope that the inspiration will come.