Courage
What a week of ups and downs in my art life! It is almost too much, if I put so much stock into it all that I feel it is life and death. I used to feel that way. Now, I'm trying to realize that I'll be fine, no matter what the cirucmstances.
The pizza client, which should have been a great ongoing one: gone! I don't know why.
My new, great client with the toy company: looks bad! My style of work is not fitting in with the characters, so they are saying, and my format of pen and ink is time consuming for the computer company to rework. It looks like a dismal future, if any, for me with them. My hopes had been high, and I was lead to believe that my work would be an important part of the company's art - everything has now chnaged and I've been told to not work anymore. Of course, I am disapointed. I had also been told abut the shares of the company I would receive and, let's face it, that isn't going to happen either. The carrot on the stick remains out of reach.
This is the sort of thing that would have plunged me into a deep depression not too long ago, and believe me, the impulse to do so is still there. But, I also got a fine commission yesterday and am on the verge of another good one today, so I need to roll with all this as best as I can. "I do great art for great people for great money" is one of my affirmations and I'll stick with it.
What can I do? I long ago made up my mind to work in my style and medium, and, in this computer-driven age, I have become quite the anachronism. It may only get worse over the years, or I will find a niche. Who knows? If I want to cripple myself with fear, I can. If I want to stay steady and strong and continue to do my best art, I will.
The pizza client, which should have been a great ongoing one: gone! I don't know why.
My new, great client with the toy company: looks bad! My style of work is not fitting in with the characters, so they are saying, and my format of pen and ink is time consuming for the computer company to rework. It looks like a dismal future, if any, for me with them. My hopes had been high, and I was lead to believe that my work would be an important part of the company's art - everything has now chnaged and I've been told to not work anymore. Of course, I am disapointed. I had also been told abut the shares of the company I would receive and, let's face it, that isn't going to happen either. The carrot on the stick remains out of reach.
This is the sort of thing that would have plunged me into a deep depression not too long ago, and believe me, the impulse to do so is still there. But, I also got a fine commission yesterday and am on the verge of another good one today, so I need to roll with all this as best as I can. "I do great art for great people for great money" is one of my affirmations and I'll stick with it.
What can I do? I long ago made up my mind to work in my style and medium, and, in this computer-driven age, I have become quite the anachronism. It may only get worse over the years, or I will find a niche. Who knows? If I want to cripple myself with fear, I can. If I want to stay steady and strong and continue to do my best art, I will.
posted by Rich Sigberman at
9:43 AM
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